Hurdle but we overcome...

It was a challenging week when many things did not seem to fall in place last week. Think this is the first time that both dear dear and me had unhappy issues that dragged on for the week. Maybe it was more on my side that I couldn't let it go.

It seems more like testing how both of us can handle situations when they arise. Dear Dear had lots of work to clear for the week. I took leave on Monday and was on mc on Wednesday. Having mood swing and falling sick added on to the unhappiness. I needed more attention. Everything just doesn't seem to fall in place....

But I'm glad that we talked things out and all are back to normal. Though I can't promise dear dear that I will answer him whenever he asks me. I will try my best to share my thoughts and feelings more openly. I know that I may need much persuasion before I say. But guess that's been just me all these while. Not that I do not wanna share but more of I tend to take longer. Also, if I know I can’t get myself to say it, I will convey using alternative methods.

I know I should have faith in dear dear but didn't know why I had fears of dear dear leaving me. Maybe it's because of my past relationship. But deep down I do know that dear dear meant what he said. He also does reassure me. But guess sometimes it can't be helped when you know how much this person means to you. The thought of losing can be really scary.

Just like last Sunday, I lost my Mickey necklace that we got from Tokyo Disney. I was really sad. Blamed myself for been careless as the necklace is part of our memories. Tried to go back to look for it and email SMRT buses to see if they find it but it's gone... hmm... I know it is just a necklace. However, it is one with memories and sentimental value. Silly me even thought that it might be a bad omen. But I have decided to move on and not brood over it. Will be more careful next time. What's more important it dear dear still loves me. That's what dear dear say....hehe =)

In fact, come to think of it, last week was not that all bad after all. Dear dear bought me lilies on Monday for me and came to look for me on Tuesday evening after my clinic for a walk. Simple way to spend our valentine's day, still it was sweet....It was the first time that I received lilies too. I also gave dear dear a special compilation CD which I burnt for him. It has all the lovely songs that dear dear likes or were meaningful to us. Ah pooh helped me deliver a card to dear dear during Batam trip and Tatty passed the CD to dear dear for me..... Hehe.....