Feelings of insecurity..

Somehow I can't help feeling insecure...wanted to tell dear dear how I feel but didn't really had the chance to just now...

How should I put it? hmm.. It's the feeling of insecurity that I fear.. Fearing that history may repeat itself.. Think i really TTM... Having thoughts of "What if one day dear dear have nothing to say to me anymore?"....Maybe that was sort of what happened to my last r/s many years back.. Fear is the word... as nothing is impossible..

But the other side of me is telling myself, "girl, don't be silly! Have trust in dear dear..This will not happen.. don't TTM!

Guess having difficulties falling asleep recently does not help too... feeling tired yet can't fall asleep when I'm on the bed.. I really dislike this feeling.. It's been a while since I have sleepless nights...

Maybe I should try to go to bed soon and not think so much......