Silly gal?

Just like the title of this entry.. I dunno if it is because I am just being silly or maybe it was all just mood swing or sort.

Somehow when dear dear has sent me home on Saturday, I didn't want him to leave. hmm... is it because this week I didn't really get to meet him for the whole week thus just wanna spend more time with him? I am just being "yang orh"? I just miss him and wanna spend more time with him? hmm...I'm not sure also but just hug him and can't bear to let go...However, I also "struggle in my mind that I should let him go back early and rest as he played majong the previous night, thus had very little sleep". Knowing that he will be sleepy and it will be dangerous for him to drive. After dear dear left I can't help but feel a bit sad but yet worried.

I went to take my shower. After my shower, I checked my mobile but there was no message from dear dear yet. Went to check the last call before he drove off. hmm... It's been close to half an hour. Can't help feeling worried but thought maybe sms him might distract him also. So, I choose to wait for a while more. hmm... this was when my mind started to run wild. I dunno why but I had that kind of fear of losing dear dear. Thought of mummy and fear that I will lose dear dear and felt bad for not letting him go off earlier on. Those were really scary thoughts. It was only when dear dear message me then I felt more relieved. But somehow I still feel rather down. I dun really know why also. Guess I was thinking too much also. Maybe it was like last time, dear dear also ever told me of his fear that he will lose me before we were together. I'm not sure if it is the same kind of feeling but whatever it is the thought is really scary.....the thought of losing your love ones...

hmm... I teared a bit again after I chatted with dear dear. Afterwhich, I fell asleep. Next day, I did not seem to feel very much better too. Was rather not my usual self the whole day. Still feeling a bit down. Kinda of missed mummy in the afternoon when I was watching tv too. Dear dear on off kept asking if I am all right and I kept telling him that I was ok though I was not very much usual self. I was rather low on energy. Not at all like the usual little girl when I was with dear dear also. It was only when he sent me home and when we were at the car park. Dear dear hug me and I could not control my tears anymore. But guess I do feel better after that....

Anyway, it is a brand new week. I shall put this all behind.....Just like the impression I gave Ivan when he was telling me just now over msn that I am a cheerful gal. Cindy is back again! =)

Dear Dear so sweet....

Our 3 months annviersary just passed....dear dear been so sweet....
Last friday, he came to pick me up from work and accompany me for dinner before my hip hop class. We were already at Bukit Batok, had our dinner and waited for my hip hop class to start. Dear dear also put car coupon till 9pm already. But I was feeling tired and low energy so was a little reluctant to go for my class. In the end, I didn't go for my hip hop class and dear dear said it's ok he will send me home. Dear dear so sweet...we already went all the way to Bukit Batok and all and he didn't compliant a single word when I didn't wanna go for class. Instead he just send me home and accompany me till 10+ as papa was not home also...

On saturday, dear dear accompany me to go shopping. Dear dear bought me a nice nice top...hehe.. cos he said I seldom see something I like so dear dear said girl girl bought him t-shirt, dear dear shall buy me the top I like...I also bought papa's perfume and belt for him on the same day. We collected mooncake from Marriot which I got for dear's family too.

Yesterday, I was already feeling a little unwell thus decided to skip my boxercise. It was also raining heavily so I stayed in the office. Dear dear came from home to pick me up despite the heavy rain. He had to walk over to his granny place to get the car and his legs were still painful cos of the marathon on sunday. Dear dear so so sweet...I always envy people having bfs or hubby to pick them up from work. Now, I also have got dear dear to fetch me when it was raining so heavily.... =)