Updates in my life...

It's been more than one year since I last posted any entry in my blog. In fact, I had a hard time looking for my own blog. Yes, it's been that long since I last had have any entry...

Hmm.. where should I start? 2007 has been quite a good year for me I guess.

Love - Yes, I have a wonderful dear dear... Our relationship has grown stronger. No doubt about that. Thanks dear for loving me the way you do! Muaah! Next year, I have to learn to be more independent now that dear dear have to work on weekends in his new job. I have to slowly get used to that since I have always been spending weekends with my dear dear. I'm always so looking forward to weekend during working days. Now that I do not have this strong motivation anymore, I will find other motivation!

Career - It's been a very busy year.. Challenging indeed. Working lots of weekends and late nights but at least efforts are recognized. Let's hope for a better year ahead in 2008. Hopefully I will find what I really want for my own career.

Family - Having regular gatherings with my uncle & family.. Visiting my granny on a weekly basis whenever I can. I feel happy whenever I see her smile. All older folks want is to have their children/grandchildren visiting them. That's all that they ask for. Been a busy year for me at work and I guess I have been neglecting my dad a little too. Pa Pa - I will try to make more effort to spend time with you. Maybe preparing dinner for you more often too... And of course, I still do miss my mum every now and then. But she is living in my heart. She will be happy for me as long as I'm happy.

Friends - Yea..friends play a big part in my life too.. Lucky me.. I have got many great friends. Always there for me when I needed them. Especially my best fren! Though he has been in Australia most of the time, I got to meet up with him when he was back. Still, I do call him when I feel sad apart from calling my dear.. Thanks Coconut for been always there for me. I do feel a little gulity for neglecting you sometimes too.

All right... Now that 2008 is coming. Maybe I should start thinking about what new year resolutions I have...

1) Find out what is it that I want to do
2) Start my exercise regime again

That's all for now.. Hope that I will enjoy my trip in BKK and be fullest recharge when I come back to start of 2008! First time that I'm spending my birthday overseas as well....

Feelings of insecurity..

Somehow I can't help feeling insecure...wanted to tell dear dear how I feel but didn't really had the chance to just now...

How should I put it? hmm.. It's the feeling of insecurity that I fear.. Fearing that history may repeat itself.. Think i really TTM... Having thoughts of "What if one day dear dear have nothing to say to me anymore?"....Maybe that was sort of what happened to my last r/s many years back.. Fear is the word... as nothing is impossible..

But the other side of me is telling myself, "girl, don't be silly! Have trust in dear dear..This will not happen.. don't TTM!

Guess having difficulties falling asleep recently does not help too... feeling tired yet can't fall asleep when I'm on the bed.. I really dislike this feeling.. It's been a while since I have sleepless nights...

Maybe I should try to go to bed soon and not think so much......