A good break from work....

These few days leave has been wonderful.. Get to do spend time with dear dear, family, friends and do things like blading, get some housework done, make presents for people and shopping..... yea yea... feels so good!

girl girl is a really fortunate gal too... so many people to celebrate birthday for me.. dear dear, friends, colleagues and family... really lucky me.. Thank you everybody!!! hehe...

Another year is coming... Time to make some new year resolutions again.. Hope that next week will be a great year like this year or if not an even better one! = )

Really great trip we had.....

Tokyo trip that I went with dear dear from 16th - 20th Dec 05 was really great! We had lots of fun together.. In a winter country, sightseeing, get to see snow on Mt Fuji, have delicious food and spending time together...
It was really quite a value for money package... With the types of food and lodging we have and the places that they brought us to. Tour guide also share a lot of Japan culture with us. Most importantly, I got to spend ample time with dear dear. I can be the little girl for all I want in a country which nobody know us. With dear dear showering me with love and giving me all his attention. It was a wonderful five days we spent together. To the extent that when dear dear was sending me home, I kinda of 不舍得, just like a little girl who play too much and reluctant to go home feeling...

So looking forward and excited....

yeah..Tomorrow I will be going to Tokyo with dear dear lo... so so looking forward this whole week... This will be my first trip to Japan and first time traveling to a winter country with dear dear.... We may really have a white xmas.. though it is not during xmas but close enough.
Can't wait for time to pass faster now. Have got work to do but not in the mood to do any work already... =P Luckily nothing is urgent on hand...phew~~
Wonder if dear dear is as excited as me. hmm... since this will be his first trip to a winter country and most expensive trip he has spent on, guess he will be too..Tomorrow at this time I will be in Tokyo already!
Really hope that me and dear dear will have lots of fun time and enjoy ourselves to the fullest there!
Fun fun fun! =)

Some updates & reflections....

It's been quite a while since I last have any free time during work hours. Last month was a crazy busy month for me. Loaded with almost 2 digits number of projects, rushing report after reports. Finally now I can get to breathe a little.

Last week, I was on a company retreat to Bangkok for 4 days. Bangkok..yes... I just went in May and this is the second trip on the year. Did quite a bit of shopping but mainly some for myself, my dear dear and of course for my pa pa too... Happy that almost all the shirts and shoes I bought fit them =)

Since it is a company retreat, no doubt we have some training done too. Hmm.. somehow I am a little motivated to try to do some networking to bring in some sales if I can. Kinda of culeless how I can start this but guess I will do it at my own pace. Slowly, at least I started to think of friends around me and ask them if they companies do market research. No luck as yet but I will continue to try. Starting is always not easy. I sort of reflected when I came back. Guess if I were to stay in this line. Just by doing research alone as an executive will not get me far. I have to take another step to try to do some sales too. As much as this is not my forte, I will still give it a try. Who knows when opportunity strikes, it will get me somewhere too.

ok so much about work.... Things between me and dear dear are doing great too. Finally, we brought pa pa out for dinner last Wednesday at Crystal Jade La Mien at Great World City. I have always wanted to bring him to eat la mien and xiao long bao but have had the chance too. I was happy that he enjoyed the dinner and pa pa and dear dear were able to communicate well too.. =) At least by now, pa pa officially know that he is my boyfriend too...

Hmm.. think I do agree with something dear dear told me last time. Anyone who is with him is fortunate. Likewise applies to me. I indeed do feel fortunate and well cared and loved by dear dear. All the happy times we have together and many many more down the road. I'm so looking forward to our Japan trip in about 3 weeks time. Then, I can really spend time with dear dear...

The other day, dear dear mentioned to me that he asked his mum," next time, if I marry Cindy, his papa how?"
I guess he does think about our future, if not why would he even ask his mum such a question... somehow I was rather happy when I heard it though I just laugh it off...

No one will know what's plan for us in the years down the road... What most important it to always stay happy and have something to look towards to...

What a way to start my week???

This supposed to be a blog for me to write all about happy things that I encountered in life....but think I really need to vent some frustrations before I start doing my work...
What a way to start my week?? This all sound so familiar when last Wednesday I just said "what a way to start my day....." Think I'm gonna be a "superwoman".. Counting the projects I have... reaching 2 digits at any point in time is not surprising at all. Last Wednesday, not knowing why, I was so "lucky". Being thrown something to do to be rushed out and needless to say it has became my baby. Well.. ok fine! Early in the morning today, I was thrown another bomb to complete today again. Of course, again...what's new? My baby again!!!! I simply do not understand why people just like to sit on projects and only pass on when the deadline is like coming soon... or rather to be precise.. on that day itself. Yes, I am just an executive but that does not mean I have all the time in the world to just sit and wait for people to throw me last minute work.
It's no longer about being not able to finish what I have on hand but rather the way of handling things. If is arranged or done appropriations, maybe I will still be more willing to do it. But right now, I am questioning... why should I even bother?

What a nice surprise!

As I was writing a cheque for my doctor in the clinic, someone walked in and stood in front of me. Guess what, it was dear dear! He was on his way home so decided to drop by to look for me to have dinner after I knocked off. How sweet of dear dear right? It was indeed a pleasant surprise. =)

Silly gal?

Just like the title of this entry.. I dunno if it is because I am just being silly or maybe it was all just mood swing or sort.

Somehow when dear dear has sent me home on Saturday, I didn't want him to leave. hmm... is it because this week I didn't really get to meet him for the whole week thus just wanna spend more time with him? I am just being "yang orh"? I just miss him and wanna spend more time with him? hmm...I'm not sure also but just hug him and can't bear to let go...However, I also "struggle in my mind that I should let him go back early and rest as he played majong the previous night, thus had very little sleep". Knowing that he will be sleepy and it will be dangerous for him to drive. After dear dear left I can't help but feel a bit sad but yet worried.

I went to take my shower. After my shower, I checked my mobile but there was no message from dear dear yet. Went to check the last call before he drove off. hmm... It's been close to half an hour. Can't help feeling worried but thought maybe sms him might distract him also. So, I choose to wait for a while more. hmm... this was when my mind started to run wild. I dunno why but I had that kind of fear of losing dear dear. Thought of mummy and fear that I will lose dear dear and felt bad for not letting him go off earlier on. Those were really scary thoughts. It was only when dear dear message me then I felt more relieved. But somehow I still feel rather down. I dun really know why also. Guess I was thinking too much also. Maybe it was like last time, dear dear also ever told me of his fear that he will lose me before we were together. I'm not sure if it is the same kind of feeling but whatever it is the thought is really scary.....the thought of losing your love ones...

hmm... I teared a bit again after I chatted with dear dear. Afterwhich, I fell asleep. Next day, I did not seem to feel very much better too. Was rather not my usual self the whole day. Still feeling a bit down. Kinda of missed mummy in the afternoon when I was watching tv too. Dear dear on off kept asking if I am all right and I kept telling him that I was ok though I was not very much usual self. I was rather low on energy. Not at all like the usual little girl when I was with dear dear also. It was only when he sent me home and when we were at the car park. Dear dear hug me and I could not control my tears anymore. But guess I do feel better after that....

Anyway, it is a brand new week. I shall put this all behind.....Just like the impression I gave Ivan when he was telling me just now over msn that I am a cheerful gal. Cindy is back again! =)

Dear Dear so sweet....

Our 3 months annviersary just passed....dear dear been so sweet....
Last friday, he came to pick me up from work and accompany me for dinner before my hip hop class. We were already at Bukit Batok, had our dinner and waited for my hip hop class to start. Dear dear also put car coupon till 9pm already. But I was feeling tired and low energy so was a little reluctant to go for my class. In the end, I didn't go for my hip hop class and dear dear said it's ok he will send me home. Dear dear so sweet...we already went all the way to Bukit Batok and all and he didn't compliant a single word when I didn't wanna go for class. Instead he just send me home and accompany me till 10+ as papa was not home also...

On saturday, dear dear accompany me to go shopping. Dear dear bought me a nice nice top...hehe.. cos he said I seldom see something I like so dear dear said girl girl bought him t-shirt, dear dear shall buy me the top I like...I also bought papa's perfume and belt for him on the same day. We collected mooncake from Marriot which I got for dear's family too.

Yesterday, I was already feeling a little unwell thus decided to skip my boxercise. It was also raining heavily so I stayed in the office. Dear dear came from home to pick me up despite the heavy rain. He had to walk over to his granny place to get the car and his legs were still painful cos of the marathon on sunday. Dear dear so so sweet...I always envy people having bfs or hubby to pick them up from work. Now, I also have got dear dear to fetch me when it was raining so heavily.... =)

2 months anniversary...

Today is sort of the second month anniversary of me and dear dear..."sort of"....because I have never say "yes" to be his gf when we get attached. Thus he said," since it is this week that we become closer as a couple, we shall have an anniversary week instead of a day to mark the anniversary then. =)

It is also this day (2 months back) that everything went very smoothly for us when we were out. We chatted a lot in Labrador Park and there was one thing that made him really happy that he lifted me and swing me. He was grinning ear to ear and both our faces were full of smiles..

I ever tell asked myself....will this just gonna be "honeymoon period" and how long will this last? Of course, I hope that it will never end. Dear dear share the same sentiments as me when I asked him in the email too. He said," If I ever stop being sweet to you, just tell me okie? A gentle reminder never hurts..Right now, I know everytime I see you so happy, I feel happy too!" These words meant a lot to me. So sweet of dear dear.. hehe...

Gifts from dear dear...

My best buddy....

I received a couple of sms from my good friend who is now in China.. Glad that he has sort out his thoughts. Hopefully, it is really a closure for this chapter of his life and a brand new one will start when he returns.

It's been a while since we last chatted. Guess maybe we did drift apart a little. It all started about a year back when he returned from U.S. We have been chatting less often and meeting up less. hmm...guess now that I am attached, my time to chat with him has also reduced. Sorry, coconut that I have been neglecting you quite a bit especially recently. Wanting to call you in China but often it is too late for me to call you when I get home. Not to say now that my phone line is down too...

He is indeed the closet friend of mine. Yes, my best friend happen to be a guy friend instead of a gal friend. He has always been by my side when I needed him most. He has always been my closest friend whom I share all my happy and sad times with. Someone whom I can just pick up the phone and call anytime I want.

Recalling a few years back.....there was once when I was really sad and worried in the middle of the night over my mum....so I called him, we chatted and after which he asked me to try to get some sleep. About half an hour later, he called me on my mobile and said that he was outside my house. He took a cab over and brought me the chicken soup and cheese cake that he made that day knowing that I could not sleep and might be hungry. I was really surprised and touched. It was in the middle of the night, at about 3+ am! He left after he passed me the stuff. This is one incident which I will never forget.

Coconut, thanks for always being by my side, especially through the tough times of my life. Friends forever.... =)

Happiness will come..

Life has been brighten up with my dear dear entering in my life...This relationship came when I least expected it to.....Guess it is all fate that brought us together....After a big circle....knowing each other a few years back and never really keep in touch till last year end when we started going out in groups.....and now we are a couple. I always believe in fate. If two persons are meant to be, somehow they will end up together someday. I must say his sincerity really touched my heart. All the little actions, all the effort he put in made a difference. He gave me a very genuine feeling that I have never felt. It is a secure feeling and I know that he meant whatever he had said.

In fact, it was quite a big step for me to get attached. I have been single for more than 3 years and have been used to the kind of freedom I had. Of course, I do not mean I will not have my own freedom if I were to get attached but things will not be the same. It was just that I was so used to being single and having lots of fun going out with my friends especially for the past one year. Also, guess the "hurt" that was caused by a relationship that I almost had but didn't in the end. Anyway, all these do not matter anymore as I know I have made the right decision in accepting my dear dear. He was too good to be missed.

I find myself getting attached to him more each day. Wanting to spend more time with him, missing him and loving him a little more each day. Though it has only been about two months that we have been together, it seems longer. Maybe cos our dating process was longer. At least longer than all my past relationships. But it was good. At least we converse a lot, give each other time to know each other better before we commit in a relationship. Like what dear dear said, maybe we will also tend to treasure more when it is not something that is achieved easily.

Both of us believe that communication is very important in a relationship. We are able to share and talk about our feelings and things that have happened. He always make me feel comfortable in telling him my feelings and thoughts. Somehow, dear dear could also sense it when I am feeling sad too. He can be more sensitive than I thought he is...hehe..*winkz*

Dear dear, thanks for pampering me and loving me the way you do.....